Delirious Exhaustion

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I have been exhausted lately, and by lately, I mean the last two weeks. I already do not have much a sleep cycle, so I am quite used to not being able to sleep often. I have slept maybe no more than three hours every couple of days for the last fourteen days. My body is worn out and ragged. Whenever I tell my professors why I look like death warmed over they predictably blame finals season. While yes, finals, and school in general, are to blame, it is mostly due to outside influences in combination with school.

We are in the home stretch, and marathoning homework on Sundays because I am procrastinator of the highest order, will soon be over. The rest of my energy through the week is taken up by our two new puppies, my younger sister, and studying Korean.

That is going well by the way. Well enough for not studying as much as I would expect of myself normally. I have been informed that I have been accidentally responding in either Korean (written and spoken), or using Korean gesticulations. Whoops. Sometimes it is as simple as a ๋„ค~ (yes), or ์‘ (another version of acknowledgement). I have been caught accidentally sending of whole sentences, or… cursing out fellow students that have been causing me some frustration since the beginning of the semester. My professor luckily found it entertaining.

I actually based my business applications end of term project on learning Korean. Since I have been living and breathing the Korean language, it was relatively easy to push out all that easy content (it was a simple power point). The hard part was the narration I had to record. That… took close to five hours. I had to do it again, and again. If I made a simple mistake, I had to start over from the beginning of that slide. It happened a lot. I was stuttering and stumbling. It was a mess.

I am so exhausted. I still have two hours left in this class until I can go home and hopefully fit in a nap of some sort. If I am home by four, and asleep by four thirty – that would be ideal. That would give me an hour or so to nap.


Here we are at the next day. I managed to make it to math where I just practiced my penmanship over and over, since I was falling asleep at my station.

All of my finals except for my objective in CGS (not the practical), and my Psych are tomorrow! The other two are online so I will be doing those, I think, on Thursday. Also, I got a 100% on my research paper! That blows me away. I have been chasing hundred in two classes this whole semester, and I finally got them at the very end.

On a separate note – I ordered a face mask off Etsy since it seems one of my biggest blocks in regards to being out and about are smells.

This is oneย I found that seemed to suit my needs – simple, lightweight, and cotton. They have a ton of cute designs, and shipping is included in the cost. I only ordered one for now to see if I like it or not. It shipped last night after… about a week? No, four days. I ordered it on the 22nd. It will take 2-3 weeks according to the note from the shop. So, I will be waiting quite some time on two packages from South Korea!

That BTS concert I was hoping for? Well, they justย officiallyย released all the dates and stops for the HYYH Epilogue tour, and it looks like it is a strictly Asiatic tour. Which… yes, I cannot deny I am a bit sad – but I know they will come back to the US one day. They have been so insanely busy, I can only imagine the stress a true world tour would bring.

This just means that I will possibly be getting a new phone is all!

Okay, I am starting to ramble, so I think I will cut this off here. Have a great rest of your day, and see you next time!

Guess Who Figured This Out?

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“This” being how to finally get a Korean IME installed on my computer without having to resort to using a Chrome extension. It only just now occurred to me to try the language settings in my computer. Why? Why? I should have thought of this ages ago!

Well, actually, I did. But I gave up way too soon, obviously.

I mean, look at this. ์•ˆ์˜!! ๋Œ€๋ฐ•์ด๋‹ค!! It really is awesome. I am slowly working towards not hen pecking. It is becoming slightly more natural to remember that the all of the consonants are on the left side, while all the vowels are to the right. Also, by installing the proper IME, I do not have to switch between visual and HTML input on WordPress to enter in the Korean characters. Yay for another point to laziness.

And no, I have not been to bed yet. I was up all night waiting for a reply that never came from the IT Team about MyMathLab. Then at like 7 or so this morning, BigHit released that BTS will be doing a concert in May. And releasing another album. Then, Got7 also released their newest music video for, “Fly.” Which was fantastic. It had a couple odd scenes here and there, but I really loved the ones on the flight deck.

I did have the idea to go to Epcot possibly, but with this continued lack of sleep, and need to save every penny for either the concert DVD, or if they announce a world tour (which one do you think I want more?) – I chose to stay home instead. I do want to go out and get some more photography in that is not related to Disney. The continuous theme of the mouse everywhere, and in everything I show drives me a bit bonkers. I would like a bit of creative identity away from all that, you know?

I was reading all my old posts from this time last year. I am almost someone different now. It was almost as if I was reading something written by someone else. Not even me. But I know it was me, and I recognize myself in the writing. But… the despair, and pain… it hurts to remember that that was in fact me. Though I do not mention it lately, I am Bipolar. Apparently Bipolar 1 with psychotic features. That intense depression, while hallucinating on a near constant basis – it was a living nightmare. I have little blips here and there, but otherwise, I am too focused on my goals to allow what normally can drag me under the muck get a grasp on my ankles. Once again, that strangely intense will power of mine. Subconscious will power. Imagine what all I could accomplish if I had full control of those faculties.

It looks like I will be emailing my math professor about having to extend my quiz due date since I still cannot get onto the dang website.

Here is to hoping everyone is well, and having a good day.